Sep 26, 2012

Giving Up.

Throw in the towel.  That's what i wanted to do today.  I really think I'm the only homeschooling mama that doesn't enjoy homeschooling.

Sure, i absolutely love hanging out with my daughter all day.  I love shopping with her.  I love talking to her. I love the closeness that i have with her, but the sitting at the table TEACHING her--NOT SO MUCH! 

God's been dealing with my heart on this.  I am committed to this for one year, but i do not feel that i NEED to be a homeschooling Mom to be a "good christian mom".

In fact, i think as women we get caught up in what "the church" thinks we should do versus what God calls us to do.  Satan is alive and well in our churches and he loves to keep us busy doing things we think we should be doing for Jesus.

Sure, God calls some of us to homeschool, but i am a firm believer that it's not a cookie cutter, one size fits all decision.  I know some awesome Christian mamas that send their little ones to school.  School is a fertile mission field.  If we take all of the Christian kids out of the school, who is going to tell the other kids about Jesus?

I CAN trust Jesus with my children in a public school setting.. 

It says in Proverbs 16:9 that We can make our plans, but the LORD determines our steps.

So what am i going to do? 

Stand still.  Watch God work.  Keep quiet and let Him take over.  I'm going to lay low and listen to God speak to me on what He wants us to do. 

1 comment:

  1. OH--I hear you and I feel for you! My kids are 15, 11 and 4 (and our on-the-way adoptive daughter is also 11). We have been through every possible educational option, and I've homeschooled one or more kids since 2005. At the moment, my 11-year-old is still homeschooled, the eldest is in public high school and the little guy goes to a Christian preschool a couple mornings a week. There are many, many days that I do not like homeschooling at all and wish that private Christian education were an option for all of them. But it's not where God has us right now. All three are thriving, and that's what matters. I still have no idea what we're going to do with V when she comes--I'm thinking homeschool initially, then see what seems to best meet her needs. I was always one who said "never" to public school, but our eldest is really thriving there so far. You're wise to just trust God to show you what's best for each of your kids.