Jul 30, 2012

Waiting Child

My heart is breaking tonight for a little girl that is 6 years old. When Micah and I talked about adopting we envisioned adding a little boy under the age of 5 to complete our family. It just makes sense. We have 2 girls and our youngest is a boy. We didn't want to adopt out of birth order.

Currently we are:

#5 for 0-5 healthy boy
#3 for 0-5 HIV+ boy
#4 for 0-5 healthy girl
#3 for 0-5 HIV+ girl

Then i saw her picture. Did i fall in love with her picture? Yes, but i heard God whisper in my ear she is the one. Of course, we are in a season of prayer over this. I tend to make quick decisions. Run with an idea and run FAST. Micah...not so much! God knew what He was doing when He brought us together.

So i sit and pray and allow God to break our hearts for what breaks His. In my heart of hearts, i feel that i should not wait for a child to become available when there is a little girl that desperately needs a home NOW!

What is stopping us from saying yes immediately?

1. The size of our house. We have a 3 bedroom and would have 3 girls and 1 boy. Selfish...yes, but i'm being honest.

2. Money. Unfortunately, adoption costs ALOT. It shouldn't cost this much, but it does. We need another $3000 to move forward.

3. I want to 100% know that she is my daughter. I know God's timing is perfect. I am waiting on the Lord. There's only one thing worse than waiting on the Lord—wishing you had!

Jul 24, 2012

Hurry up and Wait!!

We are officially on the wait list! Our home study has been finalized and now the waiting begins. It's surreal to think that God has a child already picked out for us.

As many of y'all know Brayden was a preemie. Unexpectedly, My water broke at 32 weeks with him. I had him under general anesthesia. I remember being loopy and asking to sign the papers to have my tubes tied as i was whisked off to the OR. I never wanted to go through that experience again.

At that time, i didn't understand God's plan. Today, Brayden is perfectly healthy, but i know that if Brayden would have been a full term baby Micah and i would have had one more to round the numbers out. We would have never discussed adoption and would not be in the place we are today.

It reminds me of Isaiah 55:8. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.

Jul 21, 2012

Adoption Babysitting Fundraiser

We are so blessed to have supportive friends. We had 24 friends come out and support us for our babysitting fundraiser. We raised $1300. For 5 hours we decorated cupcakes, made suncatchers, played on a slip n slide, had water balloon fights, went swimming, and had hot dogs and snacks. All in all, we had a blast and so did the kids!!

Jul 12, 2012

Sweet Redemption

"My friends, adoption is redemption. It's costly, exhausting, expensive, and
outrageous. Buying back lives costs so much. When God set out to redeem us, it
killed Him."
---Derek Loux

Jul 2, 2012

Done with the Home Study

Yes, you read right! We have every thing done. There is NOTHING left to complete. Jesus simply amazes me. My prayer is for God to keep the door open or just slam it shut. We want to be in the center of His will.

Now we wait. Oh how i can't wait for the completed Home Study. Once we receive it, we can start applying to grants.